TiME TO CONVO!!

wokayh,kali ni pasal konvo..citer da lme tp sbb PC ade problem..takleh nk citer awal,*HUHUH*,
mulenye cmni,kbiasaannye kalo gi jln2 kt luar ,sy suke pkai biase2 je.sarung cardigan pstu kuar..tp kali ni,x taola cmne boleh trbkak hati nk pkai bju yg agk sopan mcm bju kurung  la..*CEHH*,tp disebabkn shawl yg mak sy belikn x sepadan ngn kaler baju so sy decide nk pkai jubah.*WOW*,
then,pagi tuh gi konvo uncle man sy kat UIA,Gombak ngn family umi sy.2 kreta skali!smpai2 tuh,uncle man nk gi solat so dy suruh pgangkan jubah konvo dy yg besar tu ngn topi skali.sy pon tunggu je la..*BOSAN*,pnye lme tnggu,tetiba dtg la seorg lelaki*not bad,speaky but cool*,scara spontan dy bagi satu brochur smbil ckp,"kami ada buka studio kat sana(smbil tnjuk studio gmbar dyorg),"kalo kak nak tngkap gmbar ngn family pasni bole la dtg ke studio kami".sy pon senyum n angguk je la,x tau nk ckp ape..
tiba2,makngah sy trgelak.*HAIRAN*,sy ade wat pape ke????rupe2nye,sblom tuh lelaki tu ckp;"tahniah kak"!tp sy x dgr..heheh,dy ingat sy yg nk amek ijazah!!BANGGANYA!*,tp tu la,sy bru form 4,pasang angan2 bole la..nak amek bau,pkai jap jubah konvo tuh and take a pic!..pape pon..hari tu mmg enjoy!~~

*thnx coz reading,sy x ada ape2 niat yg buruk,i just wanna share all my experience,hope u guys enjoy,okayh?any comment juz applied to my chatbox,i really appreciate for everything,salam*

its not easy for me ta accept,in this life i always get stucked.what i expect is pure love from you.but when you go,all of this dissappear.my colourful day become cloudy.it left a memory....

HONESTLY FOR:MY BELOVED FRIENDS,SYASHYA AND HANANI

I never thought of
I thought nothing of
you going to leave me alone
I denied it so difficult
I feel so sick
you going to leave me alone

under gravestones now you have put
love you .. deeply
so I'm not willing this will happen
because I truly love you

This is the last time I see you
my tears fell, crying, sadness
can only say
goodbye love

Just one hour I was able to
love you in my heart
but for me forget you
take me a lifetime

org kata kat blog niy tempat curahkan isi hati,sama ada perasaan marah,sedih,kecewa,gembira melalui ayat2,

tapi aq x reti nk buat sume tuh,(x de ayat jiwang2 dlm idop aq)..

aq cuma mampu luahkn melalui lagu je,becoz tht is how i express myself,sumenye aq suke terjemahkn dlm lirik lagu,hmmm...bila aq dpat je satu lagu,cepat2 aq surf lirik dye .pleng bez!!kalo lirik tuh ade kaitan dgn kehidupn aku!bila tgh panas!bkk lagu yg agk rock cket tpi tak trlampau rock la..bile dah nak cool down,lgu2 ad diniah pilihan aq or lgu yg boley sejukkn aty r sng ckp..

s000,inilah diri aku yg sebenar..bru satu yg korunk ta0,bnyak lagi sbnarnye yg korunk x ta0(tak termasok habit bruk aq)bagi yg X knal aku sape even yg bru2 nk knal??aiceceh..JANGAN MEMANDAI NAK JUDGE AKU!KALAU NAK JUGAK,PASTIKAN TANGAN KAW CKOP BERSIH UTK TUDING JARI KAT AKU!

bagi yang knal aku,mngkin korang rase korang dah ckup knal aku..tapi sebenarnye x ckup lagi kod,,eheh..

kalo boley???listkan lah ape yg korang ta0 psal aku ek!aku sedia utk membaca!

!Depressed with my heart!

< There's this girl in the mirror, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her and sometimes I wish I did.  There is a story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbye.  When she's looking back at me I can tell...she's hurting inside. < It's getting colder now and the darkness consumes me.  Depression is slowly creeping up.  Maybe one day you'll actually care about me. < Never underestimate the pain of a person because the truth is everyone is struggling.  It's just some people hide it better than others. < She smiles with all that she has left, yet tears are left un-dried.   And though she's got so much to say, she bottles it up inside.  If you look past her broken eyes to a shadow no one sees, a disguise so you won't recognize, the girl is really me... < There's nothing more depressing than having it all and still feeling sad. < I'm tired of being nice to people who don't give a shit about me. < I'm just a fucked up girl living in a fucked up life in a fucked up world.  Welcome to where being me is -*Never Enough*- < Sometimes the pain's too strong to bare...and life gets so hard you just don't care.  You feel so alone you just sit and cry...every second you wish you could die.  Then you start thinking who would care...if one day they woke up-and you weren't there. < I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay.  But as my life goes on it hurts more in every way. < She can't hide no matter how hard she tries, her secret disguised behind the lies.  And at night she cries away her pride, with eyes shut tight staring at her inside.  All her friends know why she can't sleep at night, all her family asking is she alright.  All she wants to do is get rid of this hell, well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself.  She can only fool herself for so long... < You'll just never know...soo many emotions I choose not to show.. < Know what it's like to want to die.  How it hurts to smile.  How you try to fit in but you can't.  How you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside. < I see the blood all over your hands.  Does it make you feel more like a man?  Was it all just a part of your plan?  The pistol's shaking in my hands...and all i hear is the sound... < I've been weak and I've been strong.  I've been thru the fire and I've been thru the storm.  Try to do right and I know I do wrong.  Just be happy for me when my life is gone.  Cause with no more hurt and no more tears, there will be no more pain and no more fears.  No more people in my face that are not sincere.  So smile for me when I'm no longer here. < Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry.  And just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong. < I don't know what I'm doing anymore.  I don't know what I wanna see.  My world use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me.  < I'm not afraid of the gun in my hand, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm just afraid of the pain it will bring, and to see my best friends crying. < I'm going to smile...and make you think I'm happy...I'm going to laugh...so you don't see me cry...and even if it kills...I'm going to smile. < I'm screwing up every little good thing I ever try to do.  I was born to lose.

hope you can understand my feeling right now,if you are in my condition...it feels like URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!